“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for thou art with me . . .”
This has been running through my head the last few days, as it seems death has been looming over our family. A few days ago Peter says, “Lay your head on my chest and tell me what you hear.” At first, everything sounds normal, and then all of a sudden his heart stops for a second, and then starts again with a whomp. This happens about every 15 seconds. I am officially freaked out. Peter is worried, too, and we decide if it keeps doing that, we’ll get it checked out.
Meanwhile, Debbie is having problems, too: a bad rash, chest pains, and nausea (caused by the extreme chest pain). This is especially worrisome because she is diabetic, and any change in her health can have major ramifications. She saw her regular doctor, who ran a whole series of tests, but couldn’t find what was wrong. He told her to rest and come back if it didn’t go away in a couple days.
The next day Peter calls from the office to tell me that he had a dizzy/faintish spell while he was at the office, and asked me to make an appointment to see the doctor as soon as possible.
The day after that, Peter and I see our insurance agent to finally set up our life insurance policy (WAY overdue, and we’ve been getting quotes and such since the end of September, and things were finally falling into place – just really odd timing!)
That night, as I’m just about to start putting the kids to bed, I get a call from Debbie saying she can’t get a hold of Trevor, and she needs someone to pick her up because she can’t make it home. She was halfway home, but her hands wouldn’t grip the steering wheel, and she was scared to keep going. So I packed up all the kids and went to Trevor’s; Peter went to get Debbie (he was on his way home from work anyway), and when they got back Trevor left to take Debbie to the emergency room. By this time, it was past bedtime, so Peter stayed and put Trevor’s kids to bed while I took our munchkins home. Peter didn’t come home until 1am, and in the meantime I was praying like crazy – for Debbie to find out what was wrong, and for Peter not to have a heart attack alone with Trevor’s kids!
The next afternoon the insurance underwriters call and double check our medical history (“Have you had an EKG in the last five years?” “Um, not the LAST five years” (we won’t mention the appointment to have one this afternoon . . .)
At 3:30 Peter saw our family doctor (picture me watching the clock – ok, now he’s driving there . . . now he’s in the waiting room . . . now – ) and everything is OK. It’s a fairly common thing, nothing to worry about, but he gave Peter a prescription for something to steady his heart if he had trouble.
Today, Debbie saw another doctor (at a local clinic, who is her perspective regular doc) who told her that she had swelling around her heart, probably caused by a virus, which was extremely painful (apparently another person who’d had a similar problem had needed morphine for the pain!) but not life-threatening. They gave her a mild steroid (they couldn’t give her anything stronger because of her diabetes) and warned her that she would have to take it easy for at least two weeks.
So, that’s why my Halloween feels more like Easter – these two loved ones are alive, when I feared they would be gone. Of course, God could still call them home at any moment, but at least my immediate fears have been allayed. And even if things had turned out differently, I know that, because of that first Easter, there is really nothing to fear. That has been a huge comfort this week.








